Persistence

Nobody can understand me... Or I don't understand myself?! Sometimes, I am really don't know what to do... I said I want to focus on study but I betray of what I said.. I didn't negotiate of it... My mind also think of having fun.. Not in focusing on what I must do... Very upset and frustrated because I fear that something will be same as last semester. I hate last minute study!!!!!!!!~~ I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I must persist on what I MUST do.... Not what I should do T______T